it's like the sound you make when you're waking up by straygod, literature
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it's like the sound you make when you're waking up
He couldn't wake up.
Stuck to a badge of grey flesh, a clump of fur floated in a brown puddle. Twisted metal ribs reflected against the skin of flat water, jags of broken concrete scattered around the bases of wrecked buildings. Laz's neck hurt. Moss grew behind his back. A woodlouse shivered on his knee. The armchair in front of him was a splintered mass of greasy hair and his mum was sitting in it speaking to someone he couldn't see, grinning.
Their house was a ruin and Laz couldn't be sure if it was really their house because the roof was open to the sky and the sky was purple like it had been abused and the top floor was displaced,
every time i call it goes onto answer machine by straygod, literature
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every time i call it goes onto answer machine
you sleep alone on a double mattress in the corner of an attic cut in half by a mountain.
your voice is the broken laminate in the living room that lets in the rain where your mother stood and yanked your child out of the door
who sunk into the garden path between binbags full of dogshit and discarded toys and chewed its tongue into pieces and spat and spat. you are granulated hedgerows and the embankment where you fractured
a religion on dying trees
buried a spell in the back yard
and fucked yourself in the shed because you learned young that sex is a desiccated fly. you are clawing scabs from your mouth.
it's not a statement i'm just lazy by straygod, literature
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it's not a statement i'm just lazy
we're dying with laughter,
dying on someone else's doorstep - yours
a strange, bright glow engulfing the hallway
that collapses into ultraviolent radiation,
old stories, deserted laboratories
and i was all of these things -
the wastelands between here and Heysham power station,
an empty forest of pylons, a god
in the wind that cut a slack limp through Caton
and killed her windmills and her reflection
on the other side of the world,
watching the millennium destroy itself
in the bleached carcass of a synagogue.
i've admitted almost everything and you are picking up speed,
you are racing the wro
x factor was one long illuminati advert by straygod, literature
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x factor was one long illuminati advert
They found her standing naked in the playground, hair ripped down to the roots. This time moths had poured through, she said, thousands of them - a swarm of starving children scrambling towards the light of her bedroom window.
Seth didn't recognise her. She looked exactly the same as his mother, but he had never met this woman.
Last time, she'd crawled under the bed and refused to come out for days, convinced there were rats chewing holes in the ceiling... but these rats, she said, they weren't normal - these rats, they walked on their hind legs and wore waistcoats and their skin was translucent, and like baby birds you could see all thei
jaywalking on greyhound bridge by straygod, literature
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jaywalking on greyhound bridge
lost on the supermarket floor next to piles of dirty potatoes:
someone else's shopping list, footprint stamped across
bread
milk
cheese
strings of senseless numbers without a dial tone.
in the margin biro-skinny blue birds spin from a stick figure's outstretched hands,
head a messy hole, fingers curled up, clawing - skyline torn;
one bird ripped in half.
what i've done is project myself into the vegetable aisle.
i am twelve cans of tuna sterilised milk instant noodles chilli flakes and a bag of precooked rice-
i am someone else's shopping list,
ad nauseam. ad nauseam.
-
glancing at me like a nervous catfish,
the taxi driver i
the delivery guy looked like ron perlman by straygod, literature
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the delivery guy looked like ron perlman
violently sick, threw up
all over Gordon Ramsay.
it wasn't the DiSarrono.
I'm puking into the phone and you tell me
the next day I was screaming about demons
and I was a five year old boy and I was laughing
like a hyena.
holding the phone like a hot water bottle;
you're still talking and I can hear you against my stomach
bleating
-what?
-don't you remember?
this is the amnesia, struggling to fill itself;
it stretches out like an empty leech flailing its black body
- a dehydrated tongue rolling around between my teeth. the bedroom
is howling like a forest and the sky is a bruised woman collapsing
through the roof and your voice is
i bought this nervous breakdown for half price in by straygod, literature
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i bought this nervous breakdown for half price in
we do it like this
drinking cold tea on dirty couches
picking dog hair from our shoes.
i'm shit and chickenwire and
what the fuck are you?
i am supposed to tell you how my mother was fucking crazy
and spent nights screaming tongues into her bedsheets
and how i was a landslide
and these goddamn meetings
these conferences these cunts
with guitars
and their bibles
and their dicks in their hands
standing naked in the living room
the carpet memorised memorised memorised
MKULTRA and RFID and WWJD
and singing love songs to christ
please.
you sit there and talk about
love and destruction
a long strip of white water
toothache
drinking cold coffee across from two ex-lovers by straygod, literature
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drinking cold coffee across from two ex-lovers
new book: running my fingers over embossed letters
in better light i realise the texture is dried spit. i'm okay about it
until the BBC panics deadpan about one brit with ebola. when everyone
caught swine flu we dispensed sanitizer in shop doorways, schools
hung them in the foyer and purell
made a lot of money.
clinging to the kitchen sink, i pull nails out of my mouth
and scrub my hands antiseptic. google tells me not to worry
but crusty phlegm attaches me umbilical to west africa;
sierra leone; dislocated countrymen
connected by snot. like a kid, i keep getting my fingers
between my teeth.
exaggeration tastes like boiled paint.
By the time she was twelve they had already decided she would marry a man who could run a five minute mile and speak seven languages. They chose her a husband the same way they had chosen her eyes and her legs and the pale freckles that interrupted her nose - the same way their parents had designed their children and arranged their marriages, strategic.
Her father called her petite reine. He owned an antique chess board carved from ebony wood and maple. Some days she'd sneak into the library, pry open the old chequered box and pick out one of the queens, and she'd turn it round and round, searching for imperfections. It was a pla
random title three hundred and forty two by straygod, literature
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random title three hundred and forty two
Backwards-clouds wrinkle over the highway. She watches chunks of road disappear beneath nervous unlightning, picks at minute-fleas on Reece's ankles. Misses one, feels the sticky soda fizz of seconds dissolving, tries to grab it before it hops a decade. Between her fingers it struggles to get free, tiny legs flapping. Little anomaly, scrambling to get back to where it began, stealing bits of life whenever it lands. It reminds her of him.
She pops it. Half-digested time-juice dribbles over her thumb.
His nails are receding. She's trying to remember the sharp pressure of them digg